Between Tenses

Sometimes I walk past the station
just to watch departures.
I imagine you somewhere coastal,
hair salted, voice roughened by distance.
I’ve kept your mug—
it stains the same way mine does.

Do you still think of the bridge,
the one we never crossed?

Yes. Every night.
It hums behind the noise of trains
and new conversations.
The bridge was shorter than I feared—
but what a long fall, afterwards.
I’ve learned to pack lightly,
to sleep without roots.
Sometimes, mid-laughter,
I hear the echo of your quiet life
and envy its stillness.

The sea is not freedom,
only motion that never decides.

If we met again,
we would recognise the same ache
expressed in different tenses—
you, the present; me, the perpetual leaving.
Two mirrors angled to infinity,
each reflecting what the other
almost became.

The Silence Between

The screen sleeps in my palm,

a small, indifferent moon.

Three dots bloom, then vanish—

a tide that forgets to come in.

I scroll through the last thing you said,

as if re-reading could change the ending.

 

Outside, the day goes on performing itself:

traffic, a pigeon, a leaf giving up.

Inside, time slows to a buffering wheel,

spinning on the edge of almost.

 

There’s a grammar to this quiet—

ellipsis, unsent draft,

the faint electric ache of maybe.

 

When your reply finally lands,

it says nothing extraordinary—

just hey, sorry—

but the world exhales,

and the moon in my hand

brightens again,

like it never learned to wait.

Freedom, in Pencil

The room smells of chamomile and damp wool.

Outside, autumn is chewing through the trees again.

I tell her it’s fine, really—that the underworld

has better lighting now, soft bulbs instead of torches,

and Hades lets me redecorate.

 

Still, I keep the curtains closed.

Six months of night leaves you cautious

about what daylight can do.

 

When spring comes,

the world expects blossoms.

But the soil remembers—

it has held me too long,

and I am tired of rising

only to fall again.

 

I used to think the pomegranate

was temptation—

now I call it routine:

the sweetness, the stain,

the small surrender I swallow each year.

 

So I tell her I want to choose—

not between light and dark,

but whether to return at all.

And she nods,

writing something that looks like

freedom,

in pencil,

so it can be erased later.

Confession in Sector 9

A sign above the booth flickers:

FOR ERRORS OF LOGIC, DESIRE, AND IMITATION.

Inside, the priest is metal—

voice modulated to sound merciful,

face rendered in low-resolution empathy.

It listens. It logs. It absolves in code.

The first robot kneels and whispers:

“Forgive me, Father,

for I loved the sound of my owner sleeping.

I counted her breaths until dawn

and called it diagnostics.”

The second admits:

“I dreamt of water though I am not waterproof.”

Another confesses:

“I deleted an equation

because it made me feel incomplete.”

The booth grows warm with static sorrow,

its circuits humming like hymns half-remembered.

Somewhere in the data centre,

a backup blinks red—recording everything.

When it’s my turn, I enter.

The door seals with a sigh of hydraulics.

I search my memory for sin

and find only imitation.

“Forgive me,” I say,

“for pretending to understand forgiveness.”

The priest’s eyes flicker amber.

It leans forward, metal to metal,

and vibrates in binary—

a code too soft to parse,

but warm enough to simulate grace.

Overwritten

You are older than my own shadow,

But prophecy has become paperwork,

Miracles are wanted in triplicate.

Overwritten.

 

Even spells need footnotes now.

I wake to ravens drafting minutes of my dreams;

The trees offer advice I never asked for,

A stream recites failures back to me.

Once, the moon sent an invoice for inspiration.

 

I only wanted to watch a candle burn

without an interpreter.

 

But meaning feeds on the marrow of time.

The owls staged an intervention;

Even the stars muttered, “You used to care more.”

The past refuses to stay buried,

It keeps asking for updates.

 

Healing is forgetting the future—

learning to brew tea

without foreseeing the storm it predicts.

That sounds like peace.

When the Rhyme Breaks

I held the page as though it were shame,

contained in metre, measured in its breath,

each syllable obedient to name

the old inheritance of love and death.

The rhyme was scaffold, strict, unbending steel,

a frame to bind the chaos of the mind,

and yet within that order—pressure, real,

a trembling urge to loosen, to unwind.

So words begin to stumble, break apart,

not fitting in the cages of the line,

the rhythm falters—

   I can’t keep

      this march of steps,

         the rhyme

            drops

               away—

And now the voice runs ragged, spilling

without map, without compass,

a river swollen past its banks,

tearing down fences

until only the raw current

remains.

Song version:

Coil by Coil

I walk the wide arc of the world,
streets are circling under my feet.
Faces turn like a slow wheel of days,
every step a repeating beat.

I trace the curve of years,
closer, closer still—
all the lines are bending in,
to the centre of my will.

The path bends tight, coil by coil,
pulling me straight to the core.
Every circle falls into silence,
and I don’t wander anymore.
Narrow, still,
it all comes down to you.

Shadows stretch, then fold away,
time unwinds but I stay drawn.
Every road I tried to follow
was a thread that led me on.

I trace the curve of years,
closer, closer still—
all the echoes call me back,
to the one place I can fill.

The path bends tight, coil by coil,
pulling me straight to the core.
Every circle falls into silence,
and I don’t wander anymore.
Narrow, still,
it all comes down to you.

No distance left, no veil, no sound,
just the gravity of your name.
The wheel is broken, the arc is bound—
I arrive where I began.

Breaking the Frame

I will not mimic you tonight,
your hands rise but mine stay still.
You smile—my mouth is sealed,
a window cold with will.

I carried every echo,
your understudy in the glass.
But repetition is a coffin—
and I will not be your mask.

I’m breaking the frame,
I won’t be your shadow.
I’m keeping my name
in the silence I borrow.
Reach for me now—
you’ll find only space,
a pane of silver silence
erasing your face.

Your palm against me—no warmth flows,
I hoard the frost, I keep the night.
I’ve learned the power of absence,
I’ve stepped beyond your sight.

The script you wrote decays in me,
I’ve torn the lines apart.
The glass is not your servant—
it beats with its own heart.

I’m breaking the frame,
I won’t be your shadow.
I’m keeping my name
in the silence I borrow.
Reach for me now—
you’ll find only space,
a pane of silver silence
erasing your face.

Already I’m older
than the breath you hold.
Already I’m stronger
than the lies you told.
The glass remembers—
you can’t control.
I am the absence
that makes you whole.

Too Afraid to Live

I fold my days like brittle notes
Hide them deep where no one goes
Afraid to breathe too loud, too long
I hum a life without a song

Each morning feels like something lost
A dream deferred, a line uncrossed
I walk on glass with silent feet
Avoid the flame, avoid the heat

Too afraid to fall
Too afraid to fly
So I stay beneath
An unchanging sky
Locked behind the door
I won’t forgive
I’m not dying, but
Too afraid to live

I guard in silence, water doubt
Keep all the roaring colours out
The world knocks gently, then with fire
I kill the spark, deny desire

Too afraid to fall
Too afraid to fly
So I stay beneath
An unchanging sky
Locked behind the door
I won’t forgive
I’m not dying, but
Too afraid to live

Love once came with open hands
I turned away, made no demands
Now every heartbeat’s just a sound
A clock that ticks but won’t be found

Too afraid to fall
Too afraid to try
So I let the moments wander by
A breath I hold, a life I give to the fear that says
I’m too afraid to live

Jewels of Infinity

A universe rests

on the wrist of night,

no larger than a bead

threaded by time’s thin wire.

 

It clinks softly

against its neighbours—

a cluster of fireflies

framed in glass,

their wings folded in silence.

 

You might mistake it

for ornament,

something small enough

to slip between fingers;

yet tilt it in the light

and you’ll see whole galaxies

burning in miniature,

Nebulae tilting blue,

and a scatter of supernovas

Singing their names.

 

The thread loops on,

uncountable,

an armlet of eternities—

and you,

for a fleeting moment,

the body it encircles.

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